Life has a funny way of throwing a curve ball at you when you least expect it. Sometimes though, those curve balls turn out to be blessings instead of curses. My entire adult life all I have ever wanted was to be a good mother, and to be someone my children could respect and be proud of. I want them to be safe, and happy, and feel loved in every way. I want them to have every opportunity that I did not. But mostly, I want them to know that I love them, and will always make every sacrifice necessary to ensure them a bright and glowing future. So with that:
To Jacob, my son and the healer of my soul, you do not know the love that you have brought into my life after so much tragedy. You have been a gift to me and the happiness that I feel just from watching you sleep, and the overwhelming feeling I get each time you kiss my cheek are things that can never be replaced. Your sweet little giggle makes every moment of aggravation in my day wash away like a flood through the desert. I never thought I would be able to love like this again, and with every second of every day, you make the hole that has long been in my heart close. It is hard to imagine my life before you, but now that I have you, I cannot imagine a life that you are not a part of. Watching you grow and play this last year has been the biggest joy in my life, and I am looking forward to every memory we get to make together. From holding your little body close to mine while you will still let me, to watching you graduate from high school, I hope that every memory we make is a good one and that I can be a mother you can be proud of as you grow into a man of honor, courage, values, and respect. Jacob, I love you with all of my heart, to the moon and back, for forever and a day.
Moms, do not EVER miss an opportunity no matter how big or small to show your children how much they mean to you. Hug them, laugh with them, teach them, grow WITH them. They will one day look back and remember how amazing you were even when you were at your wits end. Just breathe in those moments when you feel like everything is falling apart, and know that the journey is worth it every step of the way.